כִּֽי־אֲ֭נִי לְצֶ֣לַע נָכ֑וֹן וּמַכְאוֹבִ֖י נֶגְדִּ֣י תָמִֽיד׃
Empero yo estoy á pique de claudicar, Y mi dolor está delante de mí continuamente.
Rashi on Psalms
For I am ready for disaster For this reason, we are concerned lest they rejoice over us, because we are accustomed to blows and are always ready and prepared for disaster.
Rashi on Psalms
and my pain is always before me It is always prepared to come before me.